They always say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself. -Andy Warhol
I watched the trailer for Seven Pounds. I have yet to see the movie as some have advised me not to see it and others have said it’s intriguing. Maybe I’ll rent it after it's done in the theaters.
One thing I picked up in the advertisement was a quote from actor Will Smith, “No matter how devastating the loss is there’s always a rebirth, there’s always a new life, if you just allow yourself to embrace it.”
I think the key word is allow. Do I allow myself to experience new life in a very new way?
It may appear like I do. But, on the inside I really wish nothing would have changed, that he never would have died and that life didn’t have to be like this.
Time won’t heal this train of thought. Like the poem below with every goodbye you learn. I continue to learn and change and hopefully at some point allow myself to embrace life for what it is.
Excerpt from Comes the Dawn
By Veronica Shorffstall 1971
You learn to build your roads
On today because tomorrow's ground
Is too uncertain for plans, and futures have
A way of falling down in midflight.
After a while you learn that even sunshine
Burns if you get too much.
So you plant your own garden and decorate
Your own soul, instead of waiting
For someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you can really endure,
That you really are strong
And you really do have worth
And you learn and learn … and you learn
With every goodbye you learn.