Tonight at dinner I told Maddi that after we were done eating she would have a bath in the bathtub. With a wide grin she exclaimed, “Bafff-taahb” I was startled to hear her say a new word. For the last month we have been stuck on “mom”, “no” and “hi”. Of course she must be brilliant if she can say a two syllable word!
Jordan told me he was sad tonight. He asked me if I could come hold him. I reminded him it was time to go to bed and proceeded to ask why he was sad. He answered, “Because I am sad, Mom. Because I want you to hold me with my feelings.” I wrapped him in my arms wondering if I could possibly hold all the feelings welling up inside of him. As a mother, I wish I had super hero powers to conquer sadness, disappointment, fear, loss. I can only hope my holding him felt powerful and secure to him.
There isn’t a day that passes that I don’t find myself wishing for Shawn to be a part of bedtime baths and provide some super hero powers.