Buying Reason

I went to the store tonight to wander around.  I needed to get out of my house and take a break.  I didn’t have a list for anything specific, but tried to use shopping as a substitute for refuge.  Instead of shelter however, I felt uncomfortably exposed.  I was caught in the midst of normalacy.  Everyone around me was performing the weekly ritual of “running errands”.  Not me.  I was drifting about trying to see if I could buy purpose.  But, they don’t sell “good reason” at Walmart nor Target.  I tried both.  I am chasing after meaning and finding that it doesn’t seem to be on the shelf.  Sense is not in stock.