Fight the Good Fight

My spirit feels like it is in the trenches of a battle.  My competitive nature won’t allow me to surrender.  Only to God do my hands go up.  He will not authorize my defeat.  In the midst of all my insecurities, I find reassurance that God is working His Mighty plan in me.  I hear Him calling me to fight the good fight.  Even on the darkest days, I feel the support of a spiritual army combating my earthly struggle.  This is the conflict between what I know and what I have yet to see.  I am wrestling with mighty questions.  I am bringing them to a mighty God.  And on most days I am forcing myself to say, "Lord, have your way with me".