I Carry His Love

I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart)
I fear no fate (for you are my fate)
I want no world (for you are my world)
Here is the deepest secret nobody knows
I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)

                                             ~e.e. cummings

I used to ask Shawn at times, “where is your heart?”  And without hesitation he would touch my heart and respond, “Right there.”  He would tell me, “Jennifer, you hold my heart.” 

And now he isn’t here and I wonder why it was me?  Why I was the privileged one to have a period in time to travel for a portion of my life with Shawn? 

The truth that he entrusted me to carry his heart on this earth, is my highest honor. 

And tonight in the midst of all my sadness and sorrow, I graciously thank my God for introducing me to a man like Shawn.  Rarely is such a gift given.  Yet, now I see how he loved me in both true and regular ways.  A decent, consistent, honest, unreserved, complete kind of love – this was my gift in Shawn.  The way in which he demonstrated life to me, beckons me to live generously.  I carry his love.  I carry it in my heart.