There are nights that the tears won’t stop and other nights when they seem to have permanently disappeared.  There are many different tears; tears of sadness, tears of anger, tears of frustration, tears of emptiness, tears of despair.  I have found the worst kinds of tears are those that are all mangled together with every bit of emotion mixed into the blend. 

There are nights that I have more to write about than actual time to write and other nights that I have nothing to write about at all. 

I still live in such great disbelief.  I never imagined it would be Shawn.  I don’t know when I will ever truly convince myself. 

What would life be without emotion?  Some days I think it would be simpler.  But, then again, how could we differentiate between true beauty and true love and true hope if we had no emotion? 

I feel like I am free falling.  Jumping with wide risk.  Realizing new potential.  Creating grander expectations.  Living weaker than I look.  Becoming stronger than I have ever been.   

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